Thursday, July 7, 2011

The game changer.

There aren't too many single words that can change your whole world quite like "pregnant".  Don't get me wrong, we were definitely "trying" to get pregnant.  In fact, we had been for some time.  I have been diagnosed with something called Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, or PCOS for short.  I got diagnosed when we were having trouble getting pregnant with our first.  For me, a medicine to help correct my insulin resistance also helped to correct my hormone imbalance and we got pregnant quickly.  The second time around, it was even quicker!  So, I hoped the third time around would be just as easy.  Wrong.  I know lots of ladies struggle with infertility and 8 months doesn't seem like a long time, but it sure felt like it. 

If you have ever seen this screen in your own home, or a more traditional "2 pink lines" test, your brain has ridden the proverbial emotional roller coaster.  Even now, more than a week later, I am still in shock and continue to have all manner of emotions ranging from thrilled and excited, to terrified and worried.  "What are we doing?! We're gonna be outnumbered!"  mixed with "We're completing our family! and "We're so blessed!!"  Also, because we have two daughters, there have already been loads of comments like, "don't you want a boy now?" or "Are you hoping for a boy?".  As much as I would like a son, sometimes I resent the comments, even though I never let on.  Am I supposed to feel like somethings missing because I only have girls?  Well, I won't be upset either way this time.  Maybe God just realizes how good we are at raising intelligent, beautiful sweetheart young ladies!  I guess only time will tell!

1 comment:

  1. Congratulations! There's something really profound about seeing the word on a test instead of just two lines, you know? I felt that way when I found out I was pregnant with Spencer. It just felt more REAL!

    - Krista from The Playdate Crashers Podcast