30 weeks pregnant seems like a big milestone somehow. It is actually a little bittersweet, knowing this will likely be the last time I am ever pregnant. People say things like, "I'll bet you can't wait until that baby gets here!", and thats so far from the truth! Of course I look forward to Avery's arrival, but I don't want time to speed up, no matter how uncomfortable I get. I want to enjoy each and every day of this pregnancy. I am going to treasure her delivery when it happens. It already makes me sad thinking about it all being over. Sad to think about having a brand new baby only one last time. All this sad and nostalgia may have you thinking, that woman isn't done having kids! Maybe you are right, and I don't know what God holds in store for us. However, I just don't know how we will financially swing a fourth child, so I am preparing myself for life with three kiddos only, and treasuring the last weeks in a chapter in my life that feels like it is almost over.